I never thought that i would sit still again after my best friend left for her career. I never thought anything else could be so painful than my best friend leaving away and we could never hangout again. Chatting with her daily, talking on phone, sharing pictures online seemed to have satisfied me, until the darkness swooped in. It wasn't the darkness of the night or the darkness by blindness. It was the darkness that emanated from the heart, deep inside from the heart. It seemed like the darkness engulfed me and never seemed to leave me.
Friends try to get me out of the darkness. The darkness is so dark that I can't notice the people out there. I don't want to, I guess. My heart just didn't seem to accept that there were other people out there beyond the darkness. It is like my sun disappeared and that there are no moon or stars out there to shine upon me. My solar system's planets crashed into each other and there was no way another could form. I was receiving help from other solar system's but I didn't want it. I want to stay within myself.
A smile that used to never leave my face seemed to have drowned never to resurface like the gigantic Titanic. A enthusiastic, bubbly, young, dynamic and confident girl is now an introvert who barely opens her mouth to talk and who has lost her self-confidence too. Blaming self did the thing for a while, but then the darkness never left. I sat still rewinding all the memories that I ever had and still couldn't smile or atleast smug. People called me up to give me condolences, which were fake, some didn't even offer. But still I sat still, never moving like a statue breathing or a breathing corpse. People shook me from time to time to check on me, but I can never escape the darkness I was left in.
Finally everyone gave up. They didn't remember me nor did they see me. I was one in the crowd. And then in the darkness a single tear shed of my eyes, through my cheeks it came down upon my hands. The cold tear didn't move me but gave way for gallons of other tears and that's the day i sat still, once again, everyday.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
SO, JUST LET IT BE
A life so good
seemed a dream
never wanted to end
So just let it be.
But dreams always end
so it had to end
but life didn't end
So just let it be.
I let go him
with smile on my face
with tears in my eyes
So he just let it be.
He left me there
to be with someone else
without a word for me
So I just let it be.
Life didn't end
Dreams did end
I didn't end
So I just let it be.
seemed a dream
never wanted to end
So just let it be.
But dreams always end
so it had to end
but life didn't end
So just let it be.
I let go him
with smile on my face
with tears in my eyes
So he just let it be.
He left me there
to be with someone else
without a word for me
So I just let it be.
Life didn't end
Dreams did end
I didn't end
So I just let it be.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
ONCE IN A LIFETIME
As corporate professionals, most of them miss out those little things in life. Pitter Patter raindrops, road side hot chat or jalebi, fun with friends, long drives with people you love, camping with family, festival time with your loved ones... such things go missing in one's life, after a brief period of time. Going back in time and thinking of those memorable days when you sat beside the special someone, while he/she was chattering non-stop, gets almost unfallen tears. With no fingers to wipe out those and no company to share such beautiful feelings, we lose emotions in our heart.
Without loved one's beside us, life suddenly becomes impossible. Be it best friends moving away, a small tiff with the special someone, fighting with siblings for larger reasons, getting heart broken from someone you haven't expected to break your heart...are examples of small things that might spoil our day. But without these in our life, wouldn't it be kind of boring??? Of course, best friends moving away might give us more tears and it would make life even boring, but we are supposed to learn things from life, aren't we??? Without those small tiff's how would you understand your girl or man better??? Without fighting with your sibling, how could you possibly get closer to them??? Without any of these life would have been impossible, we wouldn't have gotten a chance to learn anything.
But in today's corporate world, everything is almost like a deal, a business deal. Everything happens only for benefit. If the person sees loss, then he wouldn't dare go near it. Most of them are out of love and make deals. Even marriages these days happen on deals. The husband pays the rent, the wife pays for the groceries, he saves, she spends... its like a deal, more than a relation. Most of them fall out of love soon. When there wasn't even love that existed between them, how will they live happily ever after???
Once in a lifetime fall in love, fight with the special someone, get hit or hit your sibling... in short... have fun... remember life is short and we have only one. Whatever you want to do you have to do it in this life. Imagine life ending tomorrow. Or the whole world ending tomorrow. Wouldn't you go out and have fun as much as possible??? Think the same thing every morning. Take a deep breath of the fresh air in your balcony, the sweet scent of today is hanging, think of the special someone waiting for you, your best day waiting for you... and trust me it will be your best day, every day will be a best day. Its the thought that changes everything. So its up to you to decide what you want. The best or not. Remember once in a lifetime you only get to do it once!!!
Without loved one's beside us, life suddenly becomes impossible. Be it best friends moving away, a small tiff with the special someone, fighting with siblings for larger reasons, getting heart broken from someone you haven't expected to break your heart...are examples of small things that might spoil our day. But without these in our life, wouldn't it be kind of boring??? Of course, best friends moving away might give us more tears and it would make life even boring, but we are supposed to learn things from life, aren't we??? Without those small tiff's how would you understand your girl or man better??? Without fighting with your sibling, how could you possibly get closer to them??? Without any of these life would have been impossible, we wouldn't have gotten a chance to learn anything.
But in today's corporate world, everything is almost like a deal, a business deal. Everything happens only for benefit. If the person sees loss, then he wouldn't dare go near it. Most of them are out of love and make deals. Even marriages these days happen on deals. The husband pays the rent, the wife pays for the groceries, he saves, she spends... its like a deal, more than a relation. Most of them fall out of love soon. When there wasn't even love that existed between them, how will they live happily ever after???
Once in a lifetime fall in love, fight with the special someone, get hit or hit your sibling... in short... have fun... remember life is short and we have only one. Whatever you want to do you have to do it in this life. Imagine life ending tomorrow. Or the whole world ending tomorrow. Wouldn't you go out and have fun as much as possible??? Think the same thing every morning. Take a deep breath of the fresh air in your balcony, the sweet scent of today is hanging, think of the special someone waiting for you, your best day waiting for you... and trust me it will be your best day, every day will be a best day. Its the thought that changes everything. So its up to you to decide what you want. The best or not. Remember once in a lifetime you only get to do it once!!!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
OW'S AND OUCH'S!!!
A single day hasn't passed since I haven't thought about both my best friends. Busy with their hectic schedules and careers, new friends and new people, carrying on with life and moving with it is what they have learnt in these few weeks, but I am yet to get accustomed to it. Forgetting about your best friends isn't the easiest task. When I felt lonely inside the heart, giving them a text message was more than enough to tell them how much crippling it was inside the heart. The next day we meet at Mc Donalds. Have a lengthy short chat and go back homes and have a short long chat over the phone. I miss these things. Now even if I feel crippling lonely, I can't do anything about it.
Sitting at the bus stop watching the crowd move with their friends, partners; makes you long for your friends now not here. Walking in the piercing raindrops, with no one to even stop you from getting wet because of your sinusitis problem, gives you a real pain in the heart. No one to take care of, no one to ask if you have eaten, no one to question you why the tears even if there is a smile on my face. Miss those small things in life that were so important once upon a time.
People call me childish, when i see those pani puri stalls and jump up. How would they know that three best friends often searched a stall for hours so that they could spend a few extra minutes together? People call me foolish, when i mail my friends everyday or wait for their mails. How would they know that even they are doing exactly the same thing? People call me kid, when my face brighten ups at those small things. How would they know what it means in one's life? The ow's and ouch's the heart makes when u can't relive them, can't be heard till far off places, except those two, who are there, miles and miles away. These minute sounds are difficult to hear. They aren't explicitly made noise's. They come from the heart and can't be even heard by anyone except the person who knows you well.
The smile might be deceiving, but the person who understands that there is really no smile there then you are the luckiest person, because there are very few persons who understand those "ow's and ouch's". Save them in your life. If not today you will require them tomorrow, when you need a shoulder to cry, when you need someone to support you while curing that person who hurt you, to fight with when you are bored, to gossip with when you just need to talk, to text message with when you feel lonely. These small things matter a lot in life. Save them up n save your heart from ow's and ouch's.
Sitting at the bus stop watching the crowd move with their friends, partners; makes you long for your friends now not here. Walking in the piercing raindrops, with no one to even stop you from getting wet because of your sinusitis problem, gives you a real pain in the heart. No one to take care of, no one to ask if you have eaten, no one to question you why the tears even if there is a smile on my face. Miss those small things in life that were so important once upon a time.
People call me childish, when i see those pani puri stalls and jump up. How would they know that three best friends often searched a stall for hours so that they could spend a few extra minutes together? People call me foolish, when i mail my friends everyday or wait for their mails. How would they know that even they are doing exactly the same thing? People call me kid, when my face brighten ups at those small things. How would they know what it means in one's life? The ow's and ouch's the heart makes when u can't relive them, can't be heard till far off places, except those two, who are there, miles and miles away. These minute sounds are difficult to hear. They aren't explicitly made noise's. They come from the heart and can't be even heard by anyone except the person who knows you well.
The smile might be deceiving, but the person who understands that there is really no smile there then you are the luckiest person, because there are very few persons who understand those "ow's and ouch's". Save them in your life. If not today you will require them tomorrow, when you need a shoulder to cry, when you need someone to support you while curing that person who hurt you, to fight with when you are bored, to gossip with when you just need to talk, to text message with when you feel lonely. These small things matter a lot in life. Save them up n save your heart from ow's and ouch's.
Monday, September 13, 2010
UNSPOKEN WORDS AND UNFALLEN TEARS
Unspoken words and unfallen tears are said to be understood only by those who understand you or love you. Then I am the world's unluckiest person. The only three people who understood them have moved on in life. If one left behind the activa her dad was driving other left in the train at exactly 18.30 on september 11th. After three days without her i feel the cocoon that was around me broken. Nothing seems in its place. Everything seems out of order.
Who thought two best friends for life would have to leave each other. Three different girls, three different lives, one story. That's us. We met over on Harry Potter and meaningless dreams, to find a meaning out from life. The other two have found, but its still me who has to chase her dreams. Chasing dreams just doesn't seem enough especially when the dreams are shattered multiple times. Paulo Cohelo has rightly said, "Follow your dreams, or they might never come up again." The same has happened in my case. Too coward, too fragile to carry out and take my dreams forward, I'm left here with my outside protective cocoon breaking.
One who understood me without speaking, one who understood the pain that i was going through even through that smile i always portrayed, both of them are far-far-far away. Mails and phone calls and many statues don't seem enough to get over the bonding we had for four years. It takes more than time for such friendship to end. Distances and misunderstandings never break friendship. If friendship means parting apart from each other, then I'm done with it. Going away from your best of best friends, is almost like breaking up with the person you love, maybe even more than that. The pain of not having your friends beside you when you need them is nothing compared to any pain in the world. This might be understood only by those who are missing their BFF's, because I'm missing them as much as they are missing me. Internal pain inside that heart, the feeling that the whole world is contracting is like hell.
So I dedicate this post to all those who have their friends away from them and are experiencing something similar like I am doing now. People come and leave from life, but best friends also do. How nice it would be if all best friends could be wherever they wanted be together??? Or how nice it would be if all best friends could do whatever they wanted together??? These how's will keep continuing... Dedicated to all bff's...
Who thought two best friends for life would have to leave each other. Three different girls, three different lives, one story. That's us. We met over on Harry Potter and meaningless dreams, to find a meaning out from life. The other two have found, but its still me who has to chase her dreams. Chasing dreams just doesn't seem enough especially when the dreams are shattered multiple times. Paulo Cohelo has rightly said, "Follow your dreams, or they might never come up again." The same has happened in my case. Too coward, too fragile to carry out and take my dreams forward, I'm left here with my outside protective cocoon breaking.
One who understood me without speaking, one who understood the pain that i was going through even through that smile i always portrayed, both of them are far-far-far away. Mails and phone calls and many statues don't seem enough to get over the bonding we had for four years. It takes more than time for such friendship to end. Distances and misunderstandings never break friendship. If friendship means parting apart from each other, then I'm done with it. Going away from your best of best friends, is almost like breaking up with the person you love, maybe even more than that. The pain of not having your friends beside you when you need them is nothing compared to any pain in the world. This might be understood only by those who are missing their BFF's, because I'm missing them as much as they are missing me. Internal pain inside that heart, the feeling that the whole world is contracting is like hell.
So I dedicate this post to all those who have their friends away from them and are experiencing something similar like I am doing now. People come and leave from life, but best friends also do. How nice it would be if all best friends could be wherever they wanted be together??? Or how nice it would be if all best friends could do whatever they wanted together??? These how's will keep continuing... Dedicated to all bff's...
Saturday, September 4, 2010
THE FEELING OF ELATION
Happiness is something that doesn't just come when you are appreciated or you get fruits of your hardwork. A baby's smile, a rose from that unexpected secret crush, a fun filled evening with friends, a nice long chat over phone with your best friend gossiping, pani puri while its pouring cats and dogs, reading a novel under the blanket while everyone else is sleeping, going for movies by lying are the other small things that could bring us happiness. The feeling of elation, happiness, job, gladness lies in such small matters.
When with a baby and while playing with him, he/she might clasp your finger into his tightly. It brings a smile and a moment of satisfaction on your face. It relaxes your mood. Happiness is not something that is given. It is inside us, the way we perceive things. Small things might bring us happiness. Spreading happiness also gives us immense pleasure. Blaming parents for not letting enjoy the smallest of our happiness' doesn't mean we don't have them in our lives. Look around yourself. Think about those things you have, that many persons won't and can't. Little children in orphanages have no parents to live with and wait for someone to take them home. We should be glad we don't need to go through such situations. People beg on streets without clothes, food and shelter. Our parents provide such things for us without even us asking them. Such things might seem small, but in life they are the basic amenities.
Happiness is not just a feeling. Its an institution. You learn to be happy with what you have, without complaining, then you have learnt to live life. Spreading this feeling also gives you immense satisfaction. Imagine a whole bunch of your friends smiling and laughing at that group meet of yours because of you? Doesn't it sound good? Doing that might make you feel even better. Laughing once a day, makes you not only healthy but also makes you confident, builds you up as a real human and a true person. Smile at a random stranger when you see his face all creased up with worries and give them a compliment, it might make their day. When you hit your car or bike to the other one and the person comes to shout at you, whose ever mistake, give a polite and guilty smile and apologize. He might not even curse you. A positive attitude is important in life to make us happy.
If you want something that is against your parents or against the world, instead of fighting, try managing the situation with your patience about why it is good for you. The world is never fair to you. But you should make it fair for yourself. Life is all about compromises. You put something down that means something better must be waiting out there for you. Live life like there is no tomorrow and live with a feeling that the world is yours. All these seem philosophical, but truly applying them in life will make life better. These small things in life which can bring a smile on your face and make you happy should be realized. There is a happiness in your life everyday. We ignore them mainly thinking of our problems, which aren't as big as the happiness' that exist in our life.
All my post are hardly read by a few people, mostly five or eight people. I want them to spread the institution of happiness among their friends - to enjoy those small happiness' in life which carry a great significance, rather than small problems which are made bigger by thinking. A wise person would love to see his friends and family and himself happy. So, with a feeling of elation of making others happy, let's be happy.
When with a baby and while playing with him, he/she might clasp your finger into his tightly. It brings a smile and a moment of satisfaction on your face. It relaxes your mood. Happiness is not something that is given. It is inside us, the way we perceive things. Small things might bring us happiness. Spreading happiness also gives us immense pleasure. Blaming parents for not letting enjoy the smallest of our happiness' doesn't mean we don't have them in our lives. Look around yourself. Think about those things you have, that many persons won't and can't. Little children in orphanages have no parents to live with and wait for someone to take them home. We should be glad we don't need to go through such situations. People beg on streets without clothes, food and shelter. Our parents provide such things for us without even us asking them. Such things might seem small, but in life they are the basic amenities.
Happiness is not just a feeling. Its an institution. You learn to be happy with what you have, without complaining, then you have learnt to live life. Spreading this feeling also gives you immense satisfaction. Imagine a whole bunch of your friends smiling and laughing at that group meet of yours because of you? Doesn't it sound good? Doing that might make you feel even better. Laughing once a day, makes you not only healthy but also makes you confident, builds you up as a real human and a true person. Smile at a random stranger when you see his face all creased up with worries and give them a compliment, it might make their day. When you hit your car or bike to the other one and the person comes to shout at you, whose ever mistake, give a polite and guilty smile and apologize. He might not even curse you. A positive attitude is important in life to make us happy.
If you want something that is against your parents or against the world, instead of fighting, try managing the situation with your patience about why it is good for you. The world is never fair to you. But you should make it fair for yourself. Life is all about compromises. You put something down that means something better must be waiting out there for you. Live life like there is no tomorrow and live with a feeling that the world is yours. All these seem philosophical, but truly applying them in life will make life better. These small things in life which can bring a smile on your face and make you happy should be realized. There is a happiness in your life everyday. We ignore them mainly thinking of our problems, which aren't as big as the happiness' that exist in our life.
All my post are hardly read by a few people, mostly five or eight people. I want them to spread the institution of happiness among their friends - to enjoy those small happiness' in life which carry a great significance, rather than small problems which are made bigger by thinking. A wise person would love to see his friends and family and himself happy. So, with a feeling of elation of making others happy, let's be happy.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
THE DAY I SAT STILL
Tears flowed out of eyes as I saw her for the last time. She sat there behind her father on the Activa. I couldn't believe it was the last time I would be seeing her. Who dreamt the two best friends for life would get separated? She was everything a friend could have. A telepathy link sure existed between us. When I needed a shoulder she lent me hers without me telling her. Whenever i needed to share a happy moment she was always present. How she knew about all these, could possibly never be explained. A brother to tease, a sister to fight, a parent to advice, she did everything she could.
At college, we weren't exactly what you called best friends forever. We too had the meanest of the fights. While I was the enthusiastic and sportive one, she stood in the corner watching everything carefully and not getting involved, but still getting noticed. She was the one with whom I could share the deepest of my darkest secrets. Just four years of sharing a classroom made us the bestest of friends. Sharing a burger due to lack of funds. Understanding each others necessity became our priority for quite a while. Our discussion over if Hogwarts were true still gets tears in my eyes. The long talks over the phone about Harry Potter, Edward Cullen and other things cannot be left behind so easily. Who else could understand if I said the guy across the escalator was cute and smart and was staring at me? A girl can understand one. No one else could. Sitting at our favorite place of our restaurant and having delicious burger and French fries was something that we called heaven and no one else could give that. Sulking over silly issues, complaining about little things, crying over something that was over are somethings we did. When two best friends got together, what are the possible things that could be done? Let me tell you, cutting vegetables to make noodles, watching Harry Potter while drinking orange squash, discussing about future, planning to open books from the starting of next semester blah blah blah...
When her visa got confirmed and she said she was leaving, I was happy for her, but a small part of my heart was trembling. Who would do all these things after her with me? My mind ran like a race mill searching for persons whom i could share my deepest of darkest secrets. Finally the day arrived when she had to leave. Her bags packed, her heart heavy, tears that never came out, but with the possibility of flowing out. She came out to bid me goodbye. We clutched each others hands tightly for the one last time. Her dad stood there looking at us. I crossed the road waiting in the bus stop for the last time from her home towards my home. She sat behind her dad on the Activa for the last minute shopping. As she passed me she moved me goodbye. Like in a typical Bollywood movie, we both were moving apart going far away from each other.
As I reached home I realized my heart was longing to be with her, my best friend who would be leaving. I sat on the couch thinking of our best moments together. I sat watching TV until 1. At 1.49 I spoke to her once for the last time. As soon as she truncated the call tears poured out of my eyes. I gave a quick glance at all my contacts in my list and realized i had no one to console me and no one to fill the gap and then i found me sitting still (which is quite impossible) and the world around me moving. I was left alone with just the memories to live with for another year or maybe until I found a new friend (which isn't quite a decent possibility).
So i dedicate this post to my best friend forever for making my life lively and colorful and being there for me when i required someone. I will miss her surely but I am happy for her wonderful future and the courageous decision she's taken. Fresh tears start pouring as i cling to her passport size photo that i managed to get hold. Tears that no one has been able to stop as of till now. That day for the first time I really sat still.
At college, we weren't exactly what you called best friends forever. We too had the meanest of the fights. While I was the enthusiastic and sportive one, she stood in the corner watching everything carefully and not getting involved, but still getting noticed. She was the one with whom I could share the deepest of my darkest secrets. Just four years of sharing a classroom made us the bestest of friends. Sharing a burger due to lack of funds. Understanding each others necessity became our priority for quite a while. Our discussion over if Hogwarts were true still gets tears in my eyes. The long talks over the phone about Harry Potter, Edward Cullen and other things cannot be left behind so easily. Who else could understand if I said the guy across the escalator was cute and smart and was staring at me? A girl can understand one. No one else could. Sitting at our favorite place of our restaurant and having delicious burger and French fries was something that we called heaven and no one else could give that. Sulking over silly issues, complaining about little things, crying over something that was over are somethings we did. When two best friends got together, what are the possible things that could be done? Let me tell you, cutting vegetables to make noodles, watching Harry Potter while drinking orange squash, discussing about future, planning to open books from the starting of next semester blah blah blah...
When her visa got confirmed and she said she was leaving, I was happy for her, but a small part of my heart was trembling. Who would do all these things after her with me? My mind ran like a race mill searching for persons whom i could share my deepest of darkest secrets. Finally the day arrived when she had to leave. Her bags packed, her heart heavy, tears that never came out, but with the possibility of flowing out. She came out to bid me goodbye. We clutched each others hands tightly for the one last time. Her dad stood there looking at us. I crossed the road waiting in the bus stop for the last time from her home towards my home. She sat behind her dad on the Activa for the last minute shopping. As she passed me she moved me goodbye. Like in a typical Bollywood movie, we both were moving apart going far away from each other.
As I reached home I realized my heart was longing to be with her, my best friend who would be leaving. I sat on the couch thinking of our best moments together. I sat watching TV until 1. At 1.49 I spoke to her once for the last time. As soon as she truncated the call tears poured out of my eyes. I gave a quick glance at all my contacts in my list and realized i had no one to console me and no one to fill the gap and then i found me sitting still (which is quite impossible) and the world around me moving. I was left alone with just the memories to live with for another year or maybe until I found a new friend (which isn't quite a decent possibility).
So i dedicate this post to my best friend forever for making my life lively and colorful and being there for me when i required someone. I will miss her surely but I am happy for her wonderful future and the courageous decision she's taken. Fresh tears start pouring as i cling to her passport size photo that i managed to get hold. Tears that no one has been able to stop as of till now. That day for the first time I really sat still.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Bubye...Cya...Tc...
Classmates(06-401 to 459 and 07-401 to 405)
Three words that are enough in a conversation to tell a person the end of a conversation...But these three words do not seem enough to end my college life...I started my engineering life at possibly the most boring colleges in the world... Joginpally B.R. Engineering College, Moinabad (i don't remember the pin code)... August 30th i entered into the college with high dreams and on May 14th i'll be leaving the college, with what you might not call as high dreams. Oh yes! I do dream of becoming successful and independent. But college has taught me one thing, you remain soft hearted people will get you cornered.
I am not blaming on the people with whom i shared four precious years. I blame it on myself, for not being like what they are. But, I am what i am. I have been asked to change my attitude, my behavior, if i change would i remain myself? I am glad people asked me to change so that i can become a better person, but what if it changes what I am...Will they accept the new me? A question that has left me pondering. I encountered many people during these four years. Some of them hard to forget, because of the pain they caused to me and some because of the happiness they give me. But still i remain friends with every single person...though some might not find a place in my friend's list and my slam book...
Each person has taught me something or the other about what i should do with my life and what i should expect from it and what not. I thank all of them for supporting me for being with me. Thank you for criticizing me or I would have never learnt a lesson in life. I dedicate this post to all those people i met in my engineering life. I can't mention each person's name. But the person reading this surely knows that it is him or her mentioned here. I want to personally thank everyone of your from roll no. 401 to roll no. 459 and also the LE's who have entered a year later but still are a part of my engineering life. I never had any gang as such in my engineering and was never a part of any of class gang's. Its sad that they never involved me in their gangs and it is happy that they still call me their friend. I never wanted to be a part of any gang but i always wished.
My friends outside had their own gangs. My classmates had their own gangs. Its just me that has no gang. I have always been the odd one out and I am still being one. It hurts to say that i have no gang, but also happy that they are all my friends. But, I still wonder how it would be to have a gang, planning gang meets, lunching out together, having a gossip session. All these ended up in my stories and in my dreams but never in real life. I am glad i do not have any gang but still am i still the odd person out???
I end this post on a positive note. I just can't use those three words and bid farewell to my dearest dear classmates. I remember every single detail of me joining the college and now i would be leaving it, with hopes and dreams and loads of friends, but no gangs!
Love,
Mahathi
Three words that are enough in a conversation to tell a person the end of a conversation...But these three words do not seem enough to end my college life...I started my engineering life at possibly the most boring colleges in the world... Joginpally B.R. Engineering College, Moinabad (i don't remember the pin code)... August 30th i entered into the college with high dreams and on May 14th i'll be leaving the college, with what you might not call as high dreams. Oh yes! I do dream of becoming successful and independent. But college has taught me one thing, you remain soft hearted people will get you cornered.
I am not blaming on the people with whom i shared four precious years. I blame it on myself, for not being like what they are. But, I am what i am. I have been asked to change my attitude, my behavior, if i change would i remain myself? I am glad people asked me to change so that i can become a better person, but what if it changes what I am...Will they accept the new me? A question that has left me pondering. I encountered many people during these four years. Some of them hard to forget, because of the pain they caused to me and some because of the happiness they give me. But still i remain friends with every single person...though some might not find a place in my friend's list and my slam book...
Each person has taught me something or the other about what i should do with my life and what i should expect from it and what not. I thank all of them for supporting me for being with me. Thank you for criticizing me or I would have never learnt a lesson in life. I dedicate this post to all those people i met in my engineering life. I can't mention each person's name. But the person reading this surely knows that it is him or her mentioned here. I want to personally thank everyone of your from roll no. 401 to roll no. 459 and also the LE's who have entered a year later but still are a part of my engineering life. I never had any gang as such in my engineering and was never a part of any of class gang's. Its sad that they never involved me in their gangs and it is happy that they still call me their friend. I never wanted to be a part of any gang but i always wished.
My friends outside had their own gangs. My classmates had their own gangs. Its just me that has no gang. I have always been the odd one out and I am still being one. It hurts to say that i have no gang, but also happy that they are all my friends. But, I still wonder how it would be to have a gang, planning gang meets, lunching out together, having a gossip session. All these ended up in my stories and in my dreams but never in real life. I am glad i do not have any gang but still am i still the odd person out???
I end this post on a positive note. I just can't use those three words and bid farewell to my dearest dear classmates. I remember every single detail of me joining the college and now i would be leaving it, with hopes and dreams and loads of friends, but no gangs!
Love,
Mahathi
Sunday, March 7, 2010
A NEW FOUND HOPE
Once in a week, every weekend, grab a chance to have a look near the JNTU signals at KPHB, you would find three or four civilians standing with the white collared traffic policemen trying to help people follow the traffic rules. On part of a traffic initiative from Bhavita our baby organization, every Saturday or Sunday we are helping the Traffic Police of Hyderabad at JNTU to spread awareness among people and help them go according to the traffic rules.
It has been three weeks since we have been doing it. Me, Naveen (our President), Subhash (a team member and also President of Nirmaan-JBIET) and Vijay Katta (another team member). Together, we active members of Bhavita, have been putting in our efforts for a better tomorrow. The first day when i joined my team for the initiative i was very disappointed. No one wanted to listen to us. No one bothered what we did. No one even cared about what we were trying to tell them. But as we put forward our efforts in the following week, we started getting a positive response. People actually clapped for us when we successfully stopped vehicles at the stop line at the signal. I was overwhelmed with satisfaction when one sir from his car rolled down his window gave me a clap and said "Good job". The satisfaction when you help someone is immense. The third week, that is, yesterday we got the best response. People never knew that they could help the traffic personnel's help with the traffic. Many people wanted to join us at the signals. They wanted to get registered with Bhavita. They wanted to help us too. We were happy.
Being a girl, I am vulnerable to eve-teasing. I stand at the middle of the road, and not only young teenage boys i even have uncles staring at me like I have entered from some fair and lovely ad. They gape at me and the looks are enough for you to get embarrassed. Luckily, the Constables and CI there are very supportive. There is always one Constable beside me protecting me from the "looks-could-do-anything" stare. And not to forget i also have Naveen hovering from his position to mine every now and then to check on me. But, seriously speaking, when a girl tells them what to do and what they are doing is wrong (Especially to a man) it hurts their ego. They listen sometimes and the other times they curse us. But, we go on. We have the support of ten's of people compared to the abuses of one person. In the starting it was none. Today it's ten tomorrow there might be many. We are always here to spread the awareness among people and hopefully others will join us too.
We had people telling us, that the police here are of least use and that the traffic police at other cities like Bangalore or Chennai are very strict. Here, no one wants to listen to the police or what they have to say. Everyone has a reason of what they are doing at the wrong side of the road or at a no-parking board. They have a flat tire or no petrol or they have laid the foundation for the road or you could get the worse, the mayor is his/her relative. Such people are the reasons for the state of pollution at Hyderabad. I am sure that we could do even better with more active people. This is my request for all hyderabadies to please help us spread the traffic awareness among people. Our President will always be available on his mobile or email. I have attached the link for the home page of our organization. Please check on it and keep a tab on our updates.
It has been three weeks since we have been doing it. Me, Naveen (our President), Subhash (a team member and also President of Nirmaan-JBIET) and Vijay Katta (another team member). Together, we active members of Bhavita, have been putting in our efforts for a better tomorrow. The first day when i joined my team for the initiative i was very disappointed. No one wanted to listen to us. No one bothered what we did. No one even cared about what we were trying to tell them. But as we put forward our efforts in the following week, we started getting a positive response. People actually clapped for us when we successfully stopped vehicles at the stop line at the signal. I was overwhelmed with satisfaction when one sir from his car rolled down his window gave me a clap and said "Good job". The satisfaction when you help someone is immense. The third week, that is, yesterday we got the best response. People never knew that they could help the traffic personnel's help with the traffic. Many people wanted to join us at the signals. They wanted to get registered with Bhavita. They wanted to help us too. We were happy.
Being a girl, I am vulnerable to eve-teasing. I stand at the middle of the road, and not only young teenage boys i even have uncles staring at me like I have entered from some fair and lovely ad. They gape at me and the looks are enough for you to get embarrassed. Luckily, the Constables and CI there are very supportive. There is always one Constable beside me protecting me from the "looks-could-do-anything" stare. And not to forget i also have Naveen hovering from his position to mine every now and then to check on me. But, seriously speaking, when a girl tells them what to do and what they are doing is wrong (Especially to a man) it hurts their ego. They listen sometimes and the other times they curse us. But, we go on. We have the support of ten's of people compared to the abuses of one person. In the starting it was none. Today it's ten tomorrow there might be many. We are always here to spread the awareness among people and hopefully others will join us too.
We had people telling us, that the police here are of least use and that the traffic police at other cities like Bangalore or Chennai are very strict. Here, no one wants to listen to the police or what they have to say. Everyone has a reason of what they are doing at the wrong side of the road or at a no-parking board. They have a flat tire or no petrol or they have laid the foundation for the road or you could get the worse, the mayor is his/her relative. Such people are the reasons for the state of pollution at Hyderabad. I am sure that we could do even better with more active people. This is my request for all hyderabadies to please help us spread the traffic awareness among people. Our President will always be available on his mobile or email. I have attached the link for the home page of our organization. Please check on it and keep a tab on our updates.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
LEADER RISING
Leader...A movie that has been creating waves in Tollywood. A political movie describing the various illegal schemes in way to grab every single rupee from people. Leader is not just about a politician. Its about a person who leads his people in the right direction, without any unnecessary illegal schemes. He/She might be a teacher, for many students who come in year by year sitting in the same class as the passed out students. A teacher can teach a child the way to be a successful person. "School is our second home" was taught to us by our parents, teachers, relatives and henceforth. Then, why not start learning everything from our school. At home we are taught the basic manners-how to respect elders, how to talk to them, how to greet them etc. But, it is our school that imparts us most of our education and our basic knowledge. Our school gives us "wisdom". Our teacher imparts it to us. Hence, our teachers are our "LEADERS"
It might be a common person walking on the road suddenly spotting a visually challenged person trying to cross the busy signal. The common person might approach the person and help him to cross the road. Though the two persons do not know each other, they'll develop a respect for each other. The visually challenged person a respect for the person who helped him the common man for helping the person who cannot see the world with his eyes but is trying to survive in the world with what he has. So, both of them set an example of a "LEADER", who are trying to show people that they are not selfish and greedy.
A father works at his work place till late night, but always comes home with a smiling face for his family waiting. He keeps aside his office problems and takes the lead of his family and listens to all their woes throughout the night until next morning till he reaches his office and again his office files take over his life. His life is ruled only by his family and office work. He becomes an example to his children and leads them in the right direction during the initial stages of their life. He becomes a mentor to his older children. He's the breadwinner of the family and gives support to his parents at their old age. He's a husband who supports his wife through her worst phase in life. He supports her from the moment she leaves her home and her family behind her. He gives his support to anyone who comes his way. He supports his children decision. He supports his children career even through his worst financial position. Hence he's a "LEADER"
Our mother. Gives birth to us carrying us in her womb for nine months, bearing all the pain through out the period. She teaches her baby the first words. She becomes the first teacher for her child. She teaches them the alphabets, the rhymes. She teaches them how to eat and what to eat. She teaches them manners and imparts the basic knowledge before the child progresses to school. She's a best friend to her children. She gives them what they want without the knowledge of her husband. She supports her child even during the worst of times. She's a mother first and later a wife. She becomes a role model for us. She takes care of our life and plans about what should happen in our house. She selects our life partner for us and convinces us that the person is good enough. Even if she has a problem with her relatives she keep quiet for the sake of the peace of the family. She gives up her tiny tiny wishes so that she could fulfill our wishes. She sacrifices all her hobbies to be with us and spend each moment with us. She gives us her complete time so that we do not get distracted. She leads us in the right track so that we do not take a wrong decision later. She supports our decision irrespective of our dreams. So our mother is a "LEADER".
A student. A student goes through every thing in his/her life. The only phase of a human's life where he gets to cry, laugh, frustrated all together at once. They fall in love several times even after being dumped repeatedly. They do not give up easily in life. They try even after failing repeatedly. They want to be a Romeo/Juliet or a Edison/Curie. They want to be like their father and want to support their family. They want to be like their mother and help their family. They want to show people what they are worth. They party hard yet they get up next morning to attend their classes. They respect their parents decision. They get taught by their parents and their teachers to take the right route. The take their own decisions and learn from their mistakes. In all, even students are "LEADERS"
So, in each of us there is a LEADER. The way we see ourselves is the change that has to come. Let us everyone see each other recognize the Leader in us and become a LEADER!!!
It might be a common person walking on the road suddenly spotting a visually challenged person trying to cross the busy signal. The common person might approach the person and help him to cross the road. Though the two persons do not know each other, they'll develop a respect for each other. The visually challenged person a respect for the person who helped him the common man for helping the person who cannot see the world with his eyes but is trying to survive in the world with what he has. So, both of them set an example of a "LEADER", who are trying to show people that they are not selfish and greedy.
A father works at his work place till late night, but always comes home with a smiling face for his family waiting. He keeps aside his office problems and takes the lead of his family and listens to all their woes throughout the night until next morning till he reaches his office and again his office files take over his life. His life is ruled only by his family and office work. He becomes an example to his children and leads them in the right direction during the initial stages of their life. He becomes a mentor to his older children. He's the breadwinner of the family and gives support to his parents at their old age. He's a husband who supports his wife through her worst phase in life. He supports her from the moment she leaves her home and her family behind her. He gives his support to anyone who comes his way. He supports his children decision. He supports his children career even through his worst financial position. Hence he's a "LEADER"
Our mother. Gives birth to us carrying us in her womb for nine months, bearing all the pain through out the period. She teaches her baby the first words. She becomes the first teacher for her child. She teaches them the alphabets, the rhymes. She teaches them how to eat and what to eat. She teaches them manners and imparts the basic knowledge before the child progresses to school. She's a best friend to her children. She gives them what they want without the knowledge of her husband. She supports her child even during the worst of times. She's a mother first and later a wife. She becomes a role model for us. She takes care of our life and plans about what should happen in our house. She selects our life partner for us and convinces us that the person is good enough. Even if she has a problem with her relatives she keep quiet for the sake of the peace of the family. She gives up her tiny tiny wishes so that she could fulfill our wishes. She sacrifices all her hobbies to be with us and spend each moment with us. She gives us her complete time so that we do not get distracted. She leads us in the right track so that we do not take a wrong decision later. She supports our decision irrespective of our dreams. So our mother is a "LEADER".
A student. A student goes through every thing in his/her life. The only phase of a human's life where he gets to cry, laugh, frustrated all together at once. They fall in love several times even after being dumped repeatedly. They do not give up easily in life. They try even after failing repeatedly. They want to be a Romeo/Juliet or a Edison/Curie. They want to be like their father and want to support their family. They want to be like their mother and help their family. They want to show people what they are worth. They party hard yet they get up next morning to attend their classes. They respect their parents decision. They get taught by their parents and their teachers to take the right route. The take their own decisions and learn from their mistakes. In all, even students are "LEADERS"
So, in each of us there is a LEADER. The way we see ourselves is the change that has to come. Let us everyone see each other recognize the Leader in us and become a LEADER!!!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I DO NOT LIVE IN AN INDEPENDENT AND A REPUBLIC COUNTRY
India got a taste of independence in 1947 and was declared as a republic country, but the women in India still haven't gotten the flavor of freedom, as yet. Women, here in India, are the target for many things. Killing the girl child, dumping her in a dustbin, leaving her in an orphanage; its tearing many a hearts apart. In public transport too women are the victims. We find many women working, but with a fear about being dominated by a male colleague or by her unmarried boss. The horror is always in the heart of a female, dying to stay out of everything and being individualistic.
If I have to go out after the street lights are turned on, I always have to be accompanied by a male, because the society in which I live, hasn't yet allowed the freedom for females to even go out on the streets after hours. Even in the broad daylight in public transport, women are sexually abused, even without their realization. Even if they realize, they can't raise an alarm or hit him, because you are raised just a few questions of what happened. Instead of bearing the humiliation women shut their mouths and continue to travel to reach their destination. What else can we do? Though there have been schemes to help women travel by public buses safer, they haven't really worked out, call it the lack of funds or the lack of enough vehicles to support the scheme, the idea died out in between. Stalking, blank calls, eve-teasing has been common since quite a long time with men.
A boy asks a girl her hand for matrimony, the girl denies. Result will be in the next day's headlines - "Girl killed in acid attack" or "Girl stalked to death" or "Girl stabbed 20 times". Such headlines are common. Many such incidents in several parts of the country have been observed. But no one could do anything, the guy escapes eventually. Here, I am not trying to say that its always the men's mistake for such things to happen, there might be a mistake from the female side too, but the victim is always a women. The lady is dragged into the media, humiliated and the result her future is shattered. No one will ever even approach her and help her out. Its the way the nature is. Maybe this will ever change.
Dowry is another curse to Indian society. Even if you are from a lower middle class family, eventually you have to pay a definite amount to the groom to marry him. Are we buying a guy for our self? Or are we paying the guy to support us for the rest of our life? Or are we paying the guy to act as our bodyguard so that we can freely move in the society? Which ever reason, money is eventually paid. Even if the girl is well-educated and is earning more than the guy is, she has to pay more money. There are cases where the guys deny any such kind of dowry, but the parents put their legs down, emotionally blackmail the guy and get the amount they want for their son.
I am happy that practices like Sati and Widowship have been removed. Now the widow needn't jump into pyre of her husband. A widow can remarry too. I am glad that such issues have stopped. Is a girl a pain in the ass for parents that they have to pay money and get rid of them? Is she a burden to the family she loves the most in the world? If a pregnant woman is sent for abortion then the fetus must be a female. Though the government is taking actions and certain rules, in rural areas such things are common. A parents loves his/her daughter. But his over-affection might lead to some humiliation in her life. She is bounded to her parents till a certain time and later to her husband's life. She's never given the freedom she wants. I just hope that some day the life of the girl will change and will rise without the need of a man in her life!
If I have to go out after the street lights are turned on, I always have to be accompanied by a male, because the society in which I live, hasn't yet allowed the freedom for females to even go out on the streets after hours. Even in the broad daylight in public transport, women are sexually abused, even without their realization. Even if they realize, they can't raise an alarm or hit him, because you are raised just a few questions of what happened. Instead of bearing the humiliation women shut their mouths and continue to travel to reach their destination. What else can we do? Though there have been schemes to help women travel by public buses safer, they haven't really worked out, call it the lack of funds or the lack of enough vehicles to support the scheme, the idea died out in between. Stalking, blank calls, eve-teasing has been common since quite a long time with men.
A boy asks a girl her hand for matrimony, the girl denies. Result will be in the next day's headlines - "Girl killed in acid attack" or "Girl stalked to death" or "Girl stabbed 20 times". Such headlines are common. Many such incidents in several parts of the country have been observed. But no one could do anything, the guy escapes eventually. Here, I am not trying to say that its always the men's mistake for such things to happen, there might be a mistake from the female side too, but the victim is always a women. The lady is dragged into the media, humiliated and the result her future is shattered. No one will ever even approach her and help her out. Its the way the nature is. Maybe this will ever change.
Dowry is another curse to Indian society. Even if you are from a lower middle class family, eventually you have to pay a definite amount to the groom to marry him. Are we buying a guy for our self? Or are we paying the guy to support us for the rest of our life? Or are we paying the guy to act as our bodyguard so that we can freely move in the society? Which ever reason, money is eventually paid. Even if the girl is well-educated and is earning more than the guy is, she has to pay more money. There are cases where the guys deny any such kind of dowry, but the parents put their legs down, emotionally blackmail the guy and get the amount they want for their son.
I am happy that practices like Sati and Widowship have been removed. Now the widow needn't jump into pyre of her husband. A widow can remarry too. I am glad that such issues have stopped. Is a girl a pain in the ass for parents that they have to pay money and get rid of them? Is she a burden to the family she loves the most in the world? If a pregnant woman is sent for abortion then the fetus must be a female. Though the government is taking actions and certain rules, in rural areas such things are common. A parents loves his/her daughter. But his over-affection might lead to some humiliation in her life. She is bounded to her parents till a certain time and later to her husband's life. She's never given the freedom she wants. I just hope that some day the life of the girl will change and will rise without the need of a man in her life!
Friday, January 29, 2010
GO GREEN
Earth started off with micro-organisms and godzillas and dinosaurs. But, today the earth is infected with humans, humans and more humans. Number of people increasing, number of houses decreasing, number of vehicles increasing, demand's increasing, demand for plastic is increasing, number of diseases increasing, number of births increasing, number of deaths increasing, increase in the number of jobless, increase in the number of homeless, increase in the number of orphans, increase in the number of suicides, homicides and murders, increase in the number of accidents, increase in the number of marriages, increase in the number of divorcees, blah blah...In a world where there is so much of incrementation, there is only one thing that is decreasing and that is GREEN.
Oh yes!!! You do find ban plastic on plastic bags, we do find do not cut trees advertisement above two fallen trees...This is India people...All i can say is "Jaago India Jaago"...Despite repeated pleas from environmentalists above the damage to the universe due to plastic there hasn't been a decrease in the use of plastic. Plastic is everywhere in our lives. From our mobile phones to our microwave dishes to washing machines. Didn't anyone realize that the carbon in plastic could creep into our food when it is being microwaved??? Forty kilograms of plastic covers were found inside the stomach of a cow in a city at India. Forty kgs??? We get our groceries in a plastic bag, our accessories in a plastic bag, our milk in a sealed plastic cover. Our life is ruled by plastic. A hair clip is plastic. My mobile is plastic.
Leaving plastic apart, the other thing is Deforestation. Felling of trees is so common these days for widening the roads, building a temple, construction of a building... Even to place a hoarding for not to cut trees a tree has to be sacrificed. According to my estimation i guess there isn't much soil left to take in the rain water for the ground water table. There are no tree to hold the soil. The whole natural process is taking a turn. It's missing!!! A tree which gives us what we are breathing is being felled. How sad!!! Would we do that to our parents??? Would we leave them??? A tree must be treated in a similar way. The tree is the reason for us taking a deep breath. Many of us are even allergic to grass. If we spend a few moments on grass, the next moment we start sneezing. SAD!!! We can't even breathe around a natural atmosphere anymore.
Deforestation apart. Genetic food. This is clearly showing people that in a few years or even maybe months, there wouldn't be any fields left which can grow our pulses, vegetables, fruits. Maybe in a few years we cannot go to our villages where our forefathers had fields of mangoes, sweet-lime, oranges, guava...sitting beneath one of the tree with a blanket spread and plucking one of the fresh fruits. Our children would never. Maybe in another 20 yrs we would all be swallowing pills to satisfy our hunger. Is target 2020 this? With no trees, genetic food, life full of plastic, pills instead of meals...Seems scary even to think about it.
Genetic food apart. Our vehicles. Everyone these days owns a car, if not a two-wheeler. Petrol, diesel...fossil fuels...In another 30 yrs cars would be running only on gas or solar power. And after a 100 yrs no one would have even heard about petrol or diesel. It would be history. They would have a small specimen in the laboratory for the kids to see how it smells. There is no coal available around. The coal that is available in the market is the half burnt wood, which gives out loads of smoke and very less heat. Sad!!! The smoke these vehicles emit...they are so dangerously spoiling the environment. The carbon monoxide, sulfur dioxide etc etc are reacting with the ozone in the stratosphere and becomes oxygen which doesn't help in protecting us from the harmful UV rays. Chlorofluorocarbons (CFC's) are on rise being emitted from refrigerators, air conditioners, hydroplanes etc. (Check out the link in the labels that i added for more information on CFC's.)
All i would like to say is, let us take an initiative step. Stop using plastic...tell people...stop the felling of trees...tell people...reduce the use of automobiles...tell people...reduce the usage of fossil fuels...tell people...spread the awareness...SAVE THE EARTH!!! GO GREEN!!!
Oh yes!!! You do find ban plastic on plastic bags, we do find do not cut trees advertisement above two fallen trees...This is India people...All i can say is "Jaago India Jaago"...Despite repeated pleas from environmentalists above the damage to the universe due to plastic there hasn't been a decrease in the use of plastic. Plastic is everywhere in our lives. From our mobile phones to our microwave dishes to washing machines. Didn't anyone realize that the carbon in plastic could creep into our food when it is being microwaved??? Forty kilograms of plastic covers were found inside the stomach of a cow in a city at India. Forty kgs??? We get our groceries in a plastic bag, our accessories in a plastic bag, our milk in a sealed plastic cover. Our life is ruled by plastic. A hair clip is plastic. My mobile is plastic.
Leaving plastic apart, the other thing is Deforestation. Felling of trees is so common these days for widening the roads, building a temple, construction of a building... Even to place a hoarding for not to cut trees a tree has to be sacrificed. According to my estimation i guess there isn't much soil left to take in the rain water for the ground water table. There are no tree to hold the soil. The whole natural process is taking a turn. It's missing!!! A tree which gives us what we are breathing is being felled. How sad!!! Would we do that to our parents??? Would we leave them??? A tree must be treated in a similar way. The tree is the reason for us taking a deep breath. Many of us are even allergic to grass. If we spend a few moments on grass, the next moment we start sneezing. SAD!!! We can't even breathe around a natural atmosphere anymore.
Deforestation apart. Genetic food. This is clearly showing people that in a few years or even maybe months, there wouldn't be any fields left which can grow our pulses, vegetables, fruits. Maybe in a few years we cannot go to our villages where our forefathers had fields of mangoes, sweet-lime, oranges, guava...sitting beneath one of the tree with a blanket spread and plucking one of the fresh fruits. Our children would never. Maybe in another 20 yrs we would all be swallowing pills to satisfy our hunger. Is target 2020 this? With no trees, genetic food, life full of plastic, pills instead of meals...Seems scary even to think about it.
Genetic food apart. Our vehicles. Everyone these days owns a car, if not a two-wheeler. Petrol, diesel...fossil fuels...In another 30 yrs cars would be running only on gas or solar power. And after a 100 yrs no one would have even heard about petrol or diesel. It would be history. They would have a small specimen in the laboratory for the kids to see how it smells. There is no coal available around. The coal that is available in the market is the half burnt wood, which gives out loads of smoke and very less heat. Sad!!! The smoke these vehicles emit...they are so dangerously spoiling the environment. The carbon monoxide, sulfur dioxide etc etc are reacting with the ozone in the stratosphere and becomes oxygen which doesn't help in protecting us from the harmful UV rays. Chlorofluorocarbons (CFC's) are on rise being emitted from refrigerators, air conditioners, hydroplanes etc. (Check out the link in the labels that i added for more information on CFC's.)
All i would like to say is, let us take an initiative step. Stop using plastic...tell people...stop the felling of trees...tell people...reduce the use of automobiles...tell people...reduce the usage of fossil fuels...tell people...spread the awareness...SAVE THE EARTH!!! GO GREEN!!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
THE BEST DAY
Its kind of ironic. Immediately after the worst day in the beginning of the year and the starting of the week, i get to live in one of my best days. I get a call from RJ Nihara to come be a Guest RJ on her show Namastey! Hello! Aadab! on Rainbow FM 101.9. I gladly take her offer, SMS all my near and dear ones and boast about it. She asked me to come at 8.30 but i actually arrived ther 45 minutes later at 9.15. She's very polite and beautiful too and doesn't comment on my lack of time sense. Then we have a nice little chat only to realize both of us love talking. Then we go on air at exactly 10 and start getting chatty. I keep on talking (well i spoke mostly crap) and then its almost 11. It was probably on of my biggest moment in my life. Going on air while the whole hyderabad listened to you...was awesome... It feels like a dream. Nihara commented a lot about my writing and also gave me her wishes to proceed with it... Thanks to all those people who have encouraged me and wished me and have been constantly been by my side and helped me out. THANKS GUYS!!!
THE WORST DAY IN MY LIFE
4th January 2010 was probably the worst day in my life. The first week on the new year and i get the worst. I forget to switch on my cell the previous night and the alarm doesn't ring and i get up late. I fight with my dad the previous night and he doesn't talk with me when i get up. I get up late and though start early to the bus stop i don't get a single bus. I get into a bus 45 minutes later and while getting down at the stop i fall down from the bus. I walk slowly to the chairs under the chair, when my left foot hits the pavement and i again fall down on the same leg i hurt. Then i realize i have to wait for another half an hour to catch a bus to my project place. I wait and i finally catch the bus. I go there and there is nothing much to do. Sir leaves me at 3.50 and i don't get a bus back to koti till 4.30. From there i go to koti have nice chat at gokul chat, where i again fall hitting my leg to the uneven floor and hurt the same leg again. Walk a kilometer and the buy some LED's and IC's and wait for a bus to get back home. I reach home still terribly hungry, my mom doesn't give me anything. After dinner at 9, I want to go to sleep but i get interrupted by phone calls till 11. At 11 when i eye finally catches some sleep i get a SMS from 4nd saying good night. I curse myself put my phone in silent and hit my head to the pillow to atleast have some good dreams...!!!
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