OW'S AND OUCH'S!!!

A single day hasn't passed since I haven't thought about both my best friends. Busy with their hectic schedules and careers, new friends and new people, carrying on with life and moving with it is what they have learnt in these few weeks, but I am yet to get accustomed to it. Forgetting about your best friends isn't the easiest task. When I felt lonely inside the heart, giving them a text message was more than enough to tell them how much crippling it was inside the heart. The next day we meet at Mc Donalds. Have a lengthy short chat and go back homes and have a short long chat over the phone. I miss these things. Now even if I feel crippling lonely, I can't do anything about it.

Sitting at the bus stop watching the crowd move with their friends, partners; makes you long for your friends now not here. Walking in the piercing raindrops, with no one to even stop you from getting wet because of your sinusitis problem, gives you a real pain in the heart. No one to take care of, no one to ask if you have eaten, no one to question you why the tears even if there is a smile on my face. Miss those small things in life that were so important once upon a time.

People call me childish, when i see those pani puri stalls and jump up. How would they know that three best friends often searched a stall for hours so that they could spend a few extra minutes together? People call me foolish, when i mail my friends everyday or wait for their mails. How would they know that even they are doing exactly the same thing? People call me kid, when my face brighten ups at those small things. How would they know what it means in one's life? The ow's and ouch's the heart makes when u can't relive them, can't be heard till far off places, except those two, who are there, miles and miles away. These minute sounds are difficult to hear. They aren't explicitly made noise's. They come from the heart and can't be even heard by anyone except the person who knows you well.

The smile might be deceiving, but the person who understands that there is really no smile there then you are the luckiest person, because there are very few persons who understand those "ow's and ouch's". Save them in your life. If not today you will require them tomorrow, when you need a shoulder to cry, when you need someone to support you while curing that person who hurt you, to fight with when you are bored, to gossip with when you just need to talk, to text message with when you feel lonely. These small things matter a lot in life. Save them up n save your heart from ow's and ouch's.

UNSPOKEN WORDS AND UNFALLEN TEARS

Unspoken words and unfallen tears are said to be understood only by those who understand you or love you. Then I am the world's unluckiest person. The only three people who understood them have moved on in life. If one left behind the activa her dad was driving other left in the train at exactly 18.30 on september 11th. After three days without her i feel the cocoon that was around me broken. Nothing seems in its place. Everything seems out of order.

Who thought two best friends for life would have to leave each other. Three different girls, three different lives, one story. That's us. We met over on Harry Potter and meaningless dreams, to find a meaning out from life. The other two have found, but its still me who has to chase her dreams. Chasing dreams just doesn't seem enough especially when the dreams are shattered multiple times. Paulo Cohelo has rightly said, "Follow your dreams, or they might never come up again." The same has happened in my case. Too coward, too fragile to carry out and take my dreams forward, I'm left here with my outside protective cocoon breaking.

One who understood me without speaking, one who understood the pain that i was going through even through that smile i always portrayed, both of them are far-far-far away. Mails and phone calls and many statues don't seem enough to get over the bonding we had for four years. It takes more than time for such friendship to end. Distances and misunderstandings never break friendship. If friendship means parting apart from each other, then I'm done with it. Going away from your best of best friends, is almost like breaking up with the person you love, maybe even more than that. The pain of not having your friends beside you when you need them is nothing compared to any pain in the world. This might be understood only by those who are missing their BFF's, because I'm missing them as much as they are missing me. Internal pain inside that heart, the feeling that the whole world is contracting is like hell.

So I dedicate this post to all those who have their friends away from them and are experiencing something similar like I am doing now. People come and leave from life, but best friends also do. How nice it would be if all best friends could be wherever they wanted be together??? Or how nice it would be if all best friends could do whatever they wanted together??? These how's will keep continuing... Dedicated to all bff's...

THE FEELING OF ELATION

Happiness is something that doesn't just come when you are appreciated or you get fruits of your hardwork. A baby's smile, a rose from that unexpected secret crush, a fun filled evening with friends, a nice long chat over phone with your best friend gossiping, pani puri while its pouring cats and dogs, reading a novel under the blanket while everyone else is sleeping, going for movies by lying are the other small things that could bring us happiness. The feeling of elation, happiness, job, gladness lies in such small matters.

When with a baby and while playing with him, he/she might clasp your finger into his tightly. It brings a smile and a moment of satisfaction on your face. It relaxes your mood. Happiness is not something that is given. It is inside us, the way we perceive things. Small things might bring us happiness. Spreading happiness also gives us immense pleasure. Blaming parents for not letting enjoy the smallest of our happiness' doesn't mean we don't have them in our lives. Look around yourself. Think about those things you have, that many persons won't and can't. Little children in orphanages have no parents to live with and wait for someone to take them home. We should be glad we don't need to go through such situations. People beg on streets without clothes, food and shelter. Our parents provide such things for us without even us asking them. Such things might seem small, but in life they are the basic amenities.

Happiness is not just a feeling. Its an institution. You learn to be happy with what you have, without complaining, then you have learnt to live life. Spreading this feeling also gives you immense satisfaction. Imagine a whole bunch of your friends smiling and laughing at that group meet of yours because of you? Doesn't it sound good? Doing that might make you feel even better. Laughing once a day, makes you not only healthy but also makes you confident, builds you up as a real human and a true person. Smile at a random stranger when you see his face all creased up with worries and give them a compliment, it might make their day. When you hit your car or bike to the other one and the person comes to shout at you, whose ever mistake, give a polite and guilty smile and apologize. He might not even curse you. A positive attitude is important in life to make us happy.

If you want something that is against your parents or against the world, instead of fighting, try managing the situation with your patience about why it is good for you. The world is never fair to you. But you should make it fair for yourself. Life is all about compromises. You put something down that means something better must be waiting out there for you. Live life like there is no tomorrow and live with a feeling that the world is yours. All these seem philosophical, but truly applying them in life will make life better. These small things in life which can bring a smile on your face and make you happy should be realized. There is a happiness in your life everyday. We ignore them mainly thinking of our problems, which aren't as big as the happiness' that exist in our life.

All my post are hardly read by a few people, mostly five or eight people. I want them to spread the institution of happiness among their friends - to enjoy those small happiness' in life which carry a great significance, rather than small problems which are made bigger by thinking. A wise person would love to see his friends and family and himself happy. So, with a feeling of elation of making others happy, let's be happy.