THE VALUE OF FRIENDSHIP

I was wondering over and over again; that though i have huge list of friends, why my close knitted group is so less, or i would rather say no one in that group or gang. And it came hitting me, like an avalanche on a silent hill. The mistake lies in me. I am the reason I'm not in any gang or group. I'm alone savoring the taste and benefits of life without being able to share with anyone else. Is it so necessary to have a close knit group? To have a bunch of friends always by your side? Won't one person fulfill the need of being a best friend and the whole gang and console you and be by you when you need? I guess not! Before today I thought people were unlucky of not having me in their group and gang. I went around saying the same thing, but now i know better. Now I know that people are happier without me and merrier. No one wants a loud, outspoken, over-outgoing person, over-friendly and whatever blah blah blah person as part of their precious little group. No wonder my friends (or so-called) are happier than me. No one wants a frank person as part of their gang. No one wants a person who tells them the truth on their face. They want a sweet, innocent person to be their best friend which I'm not. Should I change and be a hypocrite??? Should i act and tell people that they are doing a great job when they are actually making themselves look like a fool??? Should i tell that they are great friends when they actually ruined what was set for me???? Should i tell them they are wonderful human beings after they hurt a human just for the fun for it??? Questions remain without answers. This blog is unread hence I'm posting what comes to my mind first. If it means lying gives us great friends, then I'm better without them. I'm glad i have no friends or a gang to boast about. I have myself to me. I might not know the value of friendship, but i do well know what it is to be a human. If any one has read this post. Thank you sir/madam. No one ever reads this blog hence it's more expressive. And no offence to any one. I'm glad i have very few friends and those whom i can rely on and i really hope they speak the truth and actually save the value of friendship.