PUNCHED HOLE

A hole has been punched through my chest. The dialog seems familiar, but its like it has been happening to me. An year ago, i was probably the happiest girl. Had everything a girl wanted. But, an year later, I am the saddest chick on planet. What is that could have changed my life so drastically.

Two and a half years ago, i had two best-friends, who dumped an year later for better friends. When i was founded by another friend, who cared for me, who spoke with me, comforted me with his words. Six months ago i was dumped by him too. I was devasted. It was when i wanted him the most. With no one left i turned to some one who could heal the hole that he had punched. The friendship that has been developed between us is something that no one can fill. No one even tried taking his place. When the girls left me, I had him to fill their place. He took their place like no one did. But, eventually i got dumped, this time no one there to fill that place; to fill that hole that has been punched. Did i ever make a mistake that people go on dumping me? Is it something with the way i speak that people dump me? All the people i trusted, i wanted to be with are no more with me today. I do have friends, but those who just understand me outside, but not the real me inside.

I couldn't face my two best-friends even in my class. I tried to avoid, cheat and even bitch about them. But, i couldn't do it. I still want them back and probably they are unaware of what i am thinking. I do have a best friend now, miles and miles apart, who doesn't even raise his voice when its my mistake and i start shouting. I do have a best friend for whom i am not her best friend. I do have a best friend who has a huge crush on me. I do have a best friend who keeps hurting me without even realising he was. I do have a best friend who thinks I am jealous and selfish.

Living a life that has been a failure is something i have achieved today. I am quite happy with my present life, though no one who really cares, no one who really damn cares. Will i get dumped by the three best friends remaining is the most exciting part to watch out for!!!