AN OPTIMISTIC'S DREAM FOR A BETTER TOMORROW

"Crores of loss due to floods in __________"
"Hundreds die in blasts at _________"

Such headlines are commonly seen in today's newspapers and news. A peaceful village or town is hard to find these days. Be it natural disasters or man-made destruction, there is always something happening in the life of every human being. We blame it on the leaders, do we ever give a thought to our lack of responsibility. Do we ever think of making peace with our hostile neighbors? What people need to do is to learn to build relationships and nurture them with care

It is because of the mistakes that we do today, the future of our children is in danger. We have to blame ourselves for the depletion of natural resources, extinction of several wild animals and birds and absence of internal happiness in our lives.

We come into this world empty-handed and when we leave we take away nothing. Then why do we fight with each other over land, water, money, borders and other things natural as well as man-made? Destroying things will not give us real salvation or happiness. Redefining our priorities and working towards achieving them in the need of the hour. Helping the underprivileged, the unemployed and the illiterate would give us immense satisfaction. So let us teach people to teach others importance of self-realization and prod the world towards the greater good!

HASTA LA VISTA

Maybe this is the last December i can be as a student. My life at schools and colleges is almost over. Starting from school, i had always been the talkative person and the most naughtiest in the class. Never was quite a good girl, but neither was the bad. I just went on my own

The day when i entered the college, I was mesmerized by the vastness. I was shocked by the way people commented on you (well this happened only after a few days) right in front of you. The days in the college bus, the days in the canteen, the days we bunked, the day we skipped college for a get-together, the days when we simply sat in the class wasting time, the days we shared our lunch boxes, the days when we slept off during lectures, the days when we fought for stupid reasons, the days when we talked and talked and only talked, the days when we walked in the class late, the days when we sat on the steps starting a new chapter at the 11th hour of the exam, the days when we waited for the RTC bus, the days we spent fighting for a seat in the bus, the days when we foot-boarded, the day when one of our classmate got married..........The list goes on. Its a never ending list. There is no end for such things, such priceless things.

I do agree that there have been the worst experiences in college. But they taught us about how life was. I have a clear perspective of what to expect and what not to. Most of them have also got to know.

Saying goodbye to all these things would be a tough thing. Saying goodbye to the memories would bring tears. So I would like to say HASTA LA VISTA to all those who have been here with me, supported me, liked me, encouraged me, criticized me...etc...i thank you all and at the same time I am waving you goodbye. Will miss you all buddies. Thank you for being a part of my life.

HAPPINESS

I never knew that i would be appreciated by so many people for my posts. Thank you everyone who keep reading my blog regularly and keep adding comments. I have been here for a long time, but never actually been appreciated by anyone. My parents don't even know that i keep blogging. I love to write. I love to express my feelings through words. Its d only way i can feel happy. Oh yes there are many other ways, but when i write its like my happiness is flowing inward into my heart and brain. I have found a new found companion that is this blog. My previous post-"Punched Hole", was a story of every girl in engineering. It's just not about what has just happened to me. I think every other girl in engineering experiences this. I might be the only one who has taken the bold step to agree with it and post it openly on a blog. But many girls do agree with me in their hearts.

Recently, I was watching this Disney movie-"Camp Rock". I was so mesmerized by the songs that even i wanted to write something and eventually i wrote up and composed a song "Be Yourself". When i looked at the song, it was mostly about me. Not about everyone else. My attitude has been rejected by people. My was of speech has been rejected. People get irritated because i speak a lot. But, is that a crime for being what i am? I can't change the way i am and people can't get used to what i am. But, i have a serious question for everyone who is reading this. DO YOU ACT LIKE YOURSELF? Do you listen to your inner soul? Are you what you are from the inside? Question this to yourself and if you tell me you haven't got an answer you are betraying yourself.

Be what you are. Be what u can. Follow your dreams. Follow your principles. Because you are one who will be with yourself and no one can stop you from being yourself. Be individual.

PUNCHED HOLE

A hole has been punched through my chest. The dialog seems familiar, but its like it has been happening to me. An year ago, i was probably the happiest girl. Had everything a girl wanted. But, an year later, I am the saddest chick on planet. What is that could have changed my life so drastically.

Two and a half years ago, i had two best-friends, who dumped an year later for better friends. When i was founded by another friend, who cared for me, who spoke with me, comforted me with his words. Six months ago i was dumped by him too. I was devasted. It was when i wanted him the most. With no one left i turned to some one who could heal the hole that he had punched. The friendship that has been developed between us is something that no one can fill. No one even tried taking his place. When the girls left me, I had him to fill their place. He took their place like no one did. But, eventually i got dumped, this time no one there to fill that place; to fill that hole that has been punched. Did i ever make a mistake that people go on dumping me? Is it something with the way i speak that people dump me? All the people i trusted, i wanted to be with are no more with me today. I do have friends, but those who just understand me outside, but not the real me inside.

I couldn't face my two best-friends even in my class. I tried to avoid, cheat and even bitch about them. But, i couldn't do it. I still want them back and probably they are unaware of what i am thinking. I do have a best friend now, miles and miles apart, who doesn't even raise his voice when its my mistake and i start shouting. I do have a best friend for whom i am not her best friend. I do have a best friend who has a huge crush on me. I do have a best friend who keeps hurting me without even realising he was. I do have a best friend who thinks I am jealous and selfish.

Living a life that has been a failure is something i have achieved today. I am quite happy with my present life, though no one who really cares, no one who really damn cares. Will i get dumped by the three best friends remaining is the most exciting part to watch out for!!!

WHY I ENJOY READING

There is nothing much going on in my life presently. I was reading "The New Moon" of the "Twilight Saga" all over again. And it made me think for a while about my life. In the novel, Bella is confused over her own life about her feeling for her Jake. She thinks about her and my favorite classic story "Romeo and Juliet". She thinks about what would have happened to Juliet if Romeo deserted her. Instead of marrying her, if he had left her, just because he lost interest, what would have Juliet done. Would she marry Paris just for the sake of her parent's happiness? Thinking about this it gave me a thought, what would have happened if Alice didn't see Bella jumping off the cliff. Would it have been "Jake and Bella get married and live happily ever after"? Would it have been the same crazy best-seller as it is now? Would it have been the best movie ever made in Hollywood? Would it have wonderful actors and actresses starring in it?

No. It wouldn't have. That was a story. In real life, there is no happily ever after, as Adam Sandler points out in "Bedtime Stories". But, there are happies, which only last for a moment or two. This is the reason why i am attracted a lot to novels, stories with fiction, fantasy, romance, action, mystery, adventure and all the elements of life clubbed together. But, people rule it out as craziness. I love reading because what's happening in the novel doesn't happen in my life. It might happen, but not what is happening in the book. A book has to end, as has to life. A book ends in a few pages, but life ends after many long years, but still it ends. That is why i enjoy reading. I love to stay in the world where no one can bother you. I just wish i was an element in one of the story. I just wish i could be there and do what they can.

MAHATHI'S DAY OUT

23rd october became a memorable day in my life. Ritesh, Irphan and me had an outing. It was meant to be a educational trip but was rather like an adventure. That morning i asked both of them to arrive early to college, since we had to go to RCI and also since both of them come very late...yes much later than me. But they reached college by 9 and i arrived at 11. Then we got our records corrected. Both of them had to redraw some block diagrams in Microwave Lab record. After they got their record corrected, at around 12 we started back to Mehedipatnam and from there to Telephone Bhavan and from there to Koti. By the time we reached Koti it was 2 and we were hungry. Irphan was all about reaching late and didn't let us eat, but instead got a juice for each of us. From there we reached Midhani at about 2.45. From there, after getting sun burnt for about 20 minutes, i finally asked some auto drivers there who asked us to take a seven-seater instead of a bus, which comes rarely. Finally we reached our destination at around 3.30. When we reached there, we weren't allowed inside since we had no refernce. So we were coming back when the defence stores truck dropped us half the distance (so filmy naa). Walking a furlong we came across an old lady with a flock of sheep. We were so mesmerized with the scenery that we moved to the sheep frightening them away. We walked and walked talking about how nice the RCI was from outside. When i noticed something that Ritesh crossed. And it was a SNAKE!!! He was so shocked for around a few moments, thanking God again and again. Then we got a seven-seater which dropped us till balapur x roads. From there we came to Santoshnagar had brunch. Then Ritesh came to drop me till Koti (Irphan deserted us). He made sure i got a bus and went his way. After a few minutes in the bus, an old man boarded the bus, his wife who was sitting beside me wanted to give him her seat. I politely stood. Halfway home, i was cursing myself for offering the seat, my back was hurting. I reach home and collapse ending the day with a dinner with family, watching TV and smiling inside.

EXTRACT OF MY STORY "CHRISTIE AND SID"

“For God’s sake, just think about the kids.” Shouted Mr. Grint when Christie opened the door.
“I’ll take Anna and Mark with me. They are my kids.” Said Mrs. Grint with her hands folder. They were deep in conversation and obviously they haven’t noticed that Christie has reached home and was listening to them.
“Christie is your daughter too!” Mr. Grint said angrily.
“She isn’t my daughter. I only adopted her.” Said Mrs. Grint. Christie dropped the shopping bags. They fell down with a thud. Mrs. Grint turned around to find Christie there.
“Christie, go to your room.” Mr. Grint passed an order.
“I need to know what’s happening here dad. Am I not your daughter?” Christie asked her dad with tears in her eyes.
“Indeed you are his daughter. But, you aren’t mine. You are his first wife’s daughter.” Said Mrs. Grint. “Whatever it is, I don’t care. I’m taking my kids with me. Keep your daughter with you. You will be getting the divorce papers within a day or two. I am taking the custody of my son and daughter. I don’t need this girl.”
“Clara, Christie is your daughter too.” Mr. Grint said it slowly and turned away.
“She’s not!” shouted Mrs. Grint. “I had enough of this. I am leaving this place with my children. Don’t forget to sign the divorce papers and the papers regarding the custody of my children when they reach you. If you deny signing them, then it would cost you a lot.
“Mom, please don’t do this. Anna and Mark are my siblings too.” Cried Christie.
“ANNA! MARK!” Mrs. Grint called out. Both the kids came running out. “Pack you bags. We are going for a small vacation.”
“What about school?” enquired little Anna. “And why is Christie crying?”
“Stop asking questions. Pack your bags and I want you here in FIVE minutes.” She shouted. In five minutes, after packing the bags Anna and Mark left the house with their mom saying quiet good byes to their sister and dad.
“Dad?” Christie called out softly. “Isn’t she my real mom?”
“I am so sorry my daughter.” Lamented Mr. Grint. “Clara is your step mom. Your mom or rather my first wife died in childbirth with Cancer when you were born. It was then that I married Clara. Your mom’s younger sister. She was ready to adopt you as her child. I never told you this because I felt you needn’t know. But, I think I made a mistake.”

THE ONE I LOVE

the one i love
in my dreams i see
his love for me
selfless and pure

i lay there
in the warmth
of his arms
cradling me to sleep

sleeping, i dreamt
of the one i love
his face
so innocent and smart

then i wake up
to realize a dream
so beautiful
hoping to be true

i sleep again
in the warmth of the blanket
for the dream about
THE ONE I LOVE...!!!

A DEED

Today, that is on 7th August of 2009 (07-08-09), i did a wonderful deed (well atleast according to me). I rescued a puppy. It was almost crushed under the tyres of an auto. I picked it up and dropped it onto the pavement and started leaving. But, the pup seemed to taken a liking for me. It started following me. Finally, i lifted the pup and left it where it is safe, with a family gave them a biscuit packet and asked them to feed it. I felt wonderful after saving a life. I named the pup as "Strutter", since it kept on strutting. I promised myself that i would take care of the pup until its a dog. Its a promise to myself. I also swore to myself that I'll keep doing such acts from now onwards. Hope everyone does such a deed! Then there wouldn't be any deaths of innocent animals anywhere!!!

ZINDAGI

woh thi aisi aasha
jo registhan mein nadi behla sakhi thi
baarshi mein chatri jaisi thi
aur meri zindagi mein dost bangayi

jab tak baat nahi karti meri din banti nahi
uski kushi mein meri thi basi
aur meri mein uski
aur meri zindagi mein roshni chagayi

dosti mein kho gaye hum dono
marne tak saath dene ka vaada diye
magar kismat aisi nikli
ki woh mujhse pehle chal basi

suna ban gayi meri duniya
bheedh mein main akali reh gayi
woh chali taaron se milne
apni dost ko tanhayien mein chod ke

HOPE

hope's still alive
like the world still live
in the dusk and the dawn
in the morning and night
i'm in the dark
waiting for the ray
coming from the heaven above
like a raindrop in a drought
makes my world colorful
wiping away the dreadful
left the people gaping
into the life that was rotting
but turned to be lively
with the arrival of somebody
who cares and fights
and loves and dies
for me only me
for waiting until HOPE didn't die!!!

SUPERNATURAL

Supernatural something above nature (Latin: super, supra “above” + natura “nature”). It means that there exists something beyond the scientifically visible universe. Spells, curses, divination, karma (life after death) etc all come under supernatural. Supernatural believes dates back to our ancestors and all through history. Miracles are also considered as supernatural, religious miracles. There has been a controversy over this believes. Many scientist, argue that there is a scientific explanation for something that’s happening. Vampires, werewolves and other kind of terrifying creatures are supposed to exist and are considered as supernatural. One cannot tell us exactly where the universe ends or what is beyond our solar system. If we accept the fact that there are several other solar systems, then what is beyond the other solar systems? Many of us have been puzzled by the Big Bang Theory which elucidates the formation of our solar system. What happened before the Big Bang? Do all these topics come under supernatural? Who can answer these questions? Can scientist explain them? Of course, I know they are in fact searching for the same answers and are left baffled.

Moving on with the topic, do ghosts exist? If yes, why do not we see them? If no, then what happens to the soul after a person dies? Many such questions are unanswered. Do ghosts come under supernatural? Ghosts come under the topic Paranormal . Paranormal are those kind of experiences that lack any explanation. All the psychic events such as ghosts, haunting, telepathy etc come under paranormal. Folklore has such stories; again this is a controversial issue. The science community does not support the paranormal beliefs. Ghosts are supposed to be spirits or souls of dead people. Ghosts are apparitions or shadows or partly transparent and reportedly they haunt places, generally, relating to them.


This is what Google gave me when I tried to search for supernatural and paranormal. Well to be frank even I don’t know the proper difference between supernatural and paranormal. But I do know one thing. Ghosts do exits. Call it experiences or a made up story that comes up to you to believe what is true and what is not. There are many things in the world that do not have explanation or there are many things that we cannot see but we still do believe them. We do not see God, but we still worship him. It’s the belief that exists in our mind and our heart. When there is good, there is an evil. If we go according to science, taking Newton's third law, every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Ghosts needn’t really be evil. Ghosts can be angels too. Ghosts are supposed to roam in free air or near the places where they used to be or like to be. They are supposed to hang in the space beyond the ionosphere. Well we do not know how much this is true; I mean the hanging beyond the ionosphere. One thing is for sure they do hand around in places where they like. They even stay with people they are attached to or with people they have hatred. Many a reasons can keep a ghost tied up to the earth. Real time experiences are what I can call as examples for the above explained theory. People may think that I have some hidden powers but I do not. All these experiences happened by chance. If they start investigating into the matter they won’t find any evidence!

ANGEL

White as an angel
Bright as a rainbow
Sitting in a wide meadow
Wondering about the heavens above
Staring up at the dotted sky
Folding her hands in a prayer
With her lips moving in a whisper
She asks the heavens for her long lost friend
The sky opens
And showing the proud angels above
A beautiful maiden below
Praying tho them
They tell they can't give her friend
Can't let her come to earth
Because she's beyond reach
And glide away
Leaving the girl
Staring at the dotted sky again
The girl sits there dumbfounded
Waiting for the sky to yet open again
In a hope to see
Her friend among those beautiful angels....

FRIEND

The day i saw u near your car
I wanted to meet u.
The other day when i saw u in the college
I wanted to be your friend.
The next day you approached me
And made me your friend.
I was very happy that day
I still remember it.
The next week we went for a movie
Where we became close.
The next month we went for a picnic
Where we couldn't leave each other.
The next year we went for an excursion
Where we couldn't sleep without one another.
The following day, you were in the hospital
And i was in the ward crying tor u.
You were fair and pale and
You were declared dead.
Please don't leave me my FRIEND
live with my heart forever my FRIEND!!!


P.S:A friend is some1 whom v can never lose.....

SORROWFUL MIND

Coming back from day of exhaust
thinks to sit with a group of friends to chat
But does not find any
cause she does not have one.

Thinks for a while
a big questions comes to her mind
"Why don't I have friends?"
and loses her concentration in everything.

To get back her concentration
she needs a friend
Who will be her friend?
let's wait and watch

Suddenly on day,
the postman waves a letter
it wasn't for her parents
wasn't for her brother or sister

It was for her
she was amazed and took it and read it out
It was a gal in Bombay
asking her to write back

Atlast she found a friend
but when she came to meet her
from Bombay, she dies in an accident
leaving her all alone with the
" SORROWFUL MIND"


P.S: This is the first poem i wrote when i was in my 9th standard. its about my best friend who passed away. the poem may sound stupid, but its my feelings.

My First Story

The very first story i narrated was a really funny incident that my granny can never forget. My grandparents have come to Hyderabad after a very long time. At that time there was water scarcity in Guntur(my dad's native). Even at our place we had water scarcity but only during the summer. At home we had a medium sized steel drum which hold around some 10 litres of water. My granny wanted one such drum and came and asked me. Naturally, i didn't know where it was bought, so i made a story. I told her that we got that drum in a lucky draw contest at a five star hotel when the hotel management held a lucky draw contest with the diners of the day(the drum had a label called 5 star). I thought my granny wouldn't believe it, but unluckily she did. She went to my mom and asked her to again dine in that restaurant so that they can participate in the lucky draw, and if lucky they would get another steel drum. My mom gave my granny a confused look. My granny repeated the whole story to my mom. My mom then told my granny that i was actually pulling her leg and that there was no lucky draw and that the drum was bought from a shop and not a five star hotel in a lucky draw. Till date my granny repeats the whole story to anyone who are willing to listen.

PRINCESS...!!!

you must be wondering y im titled myself as the princess. I am the eldest in the family but i get to be treated as the princess. among my gang im the only girl so again here im the princess. I may not be the princess of a land, im the princess of hearts. i can steal many a hearts with just my blabber. My talks may sound stupid, but they always make one laugh. My talks maybe immature, but they get a smile on your face. nothing much to say about myself. I love reading novels. An ardent lover of "HARRY POTTER" I think i read the whole series around some...hmmm....well.....you can't count. I love Music. I sing and dance too(only when i am alone). I loveeee making stories and telling people. I am a very sentimental and a sensitive gal; get hurted very soon. Well, for now this is it....you can write about me too. Just leave a comment and people will read about me(Everything positive please).